PERSONAL | Frustrations, College & Disneyland
Hi there, nice to speak (or type) to you again! I wanted to post this quick personal update because a lot has been going on and I really want to share some stuff. It explains my recent (and temporary!) inactivity on the blog.
So first of all, I’m in my last year of college right now. For the next five months I’ll be doing this huge research that has something to do with physiotherapy in toddlers and write a thesis-like article on it. It’s really interesting, but it’s also very time-consuming and extremely challenging. After all that I’ll be doing a full-time 40 hours per week internship for the last five months. Yeah, this last year is crazy. My fellow Dutchies who have graduated college know what I’m talking about. So that’s what’s up at school. This does not stop me from blogging, but it does limit my free time heavily.
Then – there’s something that messes with my feelings. I just don’t know how to feel about it. You know I’m in the process of auditioning for Disneyland Paris, right? Well, last tuesday I passed my third audition. I’m in. I have the opportunity to work at my favorite place on earth.. Why do I not sound excited? Because yesterday I sent them an e-mail, saying that I am not able to go to Paris and that I have to turn down the contract. That was, without any single doubt, the worst and most difficult e-mail I have ever sent in my life. It took me 10 minutes of staring at the ‘send’ button before I could do it. You see, I can’t just postpone this last year of college. I have to finish this. So that means I’ll have to audition again in about six months and hope to pass – again..
My head has been spinning ever since and I’m so not focused on school. In fact, I really hate school right now (more than I usually do, haha) because it’s literally standing in the way of my dream. A dream that many people have but only a few can achieve. It’s so frustrating!
Anyway, I’m looking into dancing classes right now, because I want to up my game to increase my chances of passing the audition again next time. The problem is – literally all the classes that I would like to join are on tuesday evenings. And that’s when I have to teach my own BodyBalance class. Gahh, I need some help from the universe here, haha! It’s not working with me!
So I think you understand that I haven’t had time or energy to sit down and blog for a while. But I actually do have some posts lined up to get published, so you will see those next week. I’m sorry for all these tiny little frustrations in this post! I usually don’t do that, but I just wanted to let you guys know what’s up. Plus – writing it out really helps me. It’s therapeutic. ;-)
So what have you been up to lately? Any frustrations you want to share? Let’s be frustrated together, haha!